Karma.. karma.. and karma...

Yo, Aoi desu...

Lately I feel so sad, stress, depress, and mad. So many problems I must to faced and even I tried to be 'professional' one, seriously its really hard! Sometimes I wanna give up, but I know, I can't do that! I must keep going like the 'professional' one. Keep works even there's a lot of problems and burden.


Actually I already know and understand for all my bad luck and bad days from a long times ago... Its my karma and I must keep going! But... its really hard to faced it alone... I don't wanna be a cry baby and look so weak like before. I tried to 'kill' myself which 'killing' my sense and more often showing my 'straight' and 'poker' faces.


Some my friends ever told me to shared my burden to them.. but, to be truth I'm really afraid for it. I ever did it before but at the end.. *sigh I can't say it cause its really hurts.. So I'm so sorry if I ever shared my burden with one of you.. cause I already reach my limit.. I can't hold it by my self. But as much as I can, I will never shared it since I know.. I don't wanna be a burden..


In same times, I glad for some friends for keep cheer me up even I never meet them face to face. Because of them, I still feel a 'light' in my darkness..


okay, Aoi won't tell more or will ruining your mood... Thanks if anyone read this...

jya... oyasumi good night~