Again and again

*sigh

again.. again.. and again..

*sigh

you guys already failed as 'parent' and now what.. ? still proud with your self? when you guys will stop do something like this? do you think that's good? do you think that's the good way? did you guys ever think with your children's feeling when hearing or seeing that?

or.. did you guys never realize.. why.. ALL your CHILDREN didn't respect or care with you guys? are you guys ever think about that?

and .. you guys ONLY keep show YOUR KINDNESS in front all YOUR FRIENDS and ACT like the VICTIM in this FAMILY??


for me.. as the eldest one from all your kids..


I really feel so DISGUSTING for having parent like you guys..

and If one day.. one of you start to killing each other.. never wish me to say or wrote something to back you-up or attend to your funeral..


*sigh


I just wonder.. when something like this will stop..

until.. two of them.. died...??

Yatta!!! Kelar!! XP

Yosha!!! XP

akhirnya sketsa gambar kemarin selesai juga! Happy~ X3

( link )

Ah.. Walaupun masih banyak kekurangan.. Ya.. namanya juga ini latihan.. ^___^'\ Tapi untuk hasil kali ini cukup bangga karena kembali belajar bagaimana cara mewarnai bayangan untuk rambut karena dari kemarin.. masih banyak kesalahan dan kebingungan...


dan saat ini.. yang masih perlu dipelajari.. adalah.. konsisten dalam menggambar wajah khususnya couple, menggambar tangan khususnya jari dan .. hidung.. kemarin sudah ada yang dapet.. namun.. masih ada kekurangan dalam penggunaan outline.. kali ini..

hahaha.. .. T^T



yosha!! Perjalanan masih panjang!! X3


okaay.. sekian dulu dari Aoi ^___^/

jya~

Latihan

Yo.. konbanwaaa xp

Hari ini cukup menyenangkan karena Aoi nemu beberapa seiyuu event yg menarik xp dan melihat seiyuu2 senior itu.. rasa na... hahahahahaha..

Ga terasa udah tengah malam...

Hari ini mencoba membuat OC aka original chara..
Gabungan dari ikemen... dan megane... tapi stak aka bingung gambr megane dr sisi samping... ToT

Yosha!!! Semangaaat!!!

Happy x3

Hai.. akhirnya bisa konek juga... hahahaha...

Hari ini cukup menyenangkan dan penuh perjuangan... hahahahha...

Akhirnya bisa download magi!seiyuu event xp happy..

Hari ini keadaan kantor mulai dejavu.. aka cuma berdua sama boss di ruangan...

Sebenarnya ga masalah.. hanya saja.. ya.. hahahahaha...

... ngomong-ngomong... itu mejaku xp hahahaha... berantakan aka lagi full~!! Hahahaha...

Yosha!!!!!

Smangaaaat!!!! Xp

Update tiap hari?

Hmm... sudah lama ya gak nulis apa-apa disini ^___^'\

Walau geje, kepikiran kalau update blog tiap hari..

Baik ?

Buruk ?

Hmm... Jika ditanya alasannya... mudah saja.. untuk menghilangkan kebosanan dan ingin curcol aka curhat saja...

Hahahahaha.. Baik atau tidak.. sempat atau tidak.. mari di lihat nanti saja...




dan untuk saat ini.. update yang mau dibagi adalah... saat ini Aoi sedang 'stress' aka fangirling dengan salah satu seiyuu lama...

hahahaha.. XP

Mori2 aka Morikawa Toshiyuki... XP gomen ne kalo update Aoi saat-saat ini penuh dengan seiyuu~ Hahahaha..

Hmm..? untuk Daichan n Kanechan.. tentu saja Aoi masih suka.. hanya saja.. kali ini.. sedikit di 'tambah' XP hahahaha.. XP

dan ini salah satu foto yang berhasil bikin Aoi sakit perut di menit-menit terakhir sebelum pulang kantor

( link ) 

Hal lain na yang sebenarnya bikin Aoi mulai tertarik... adalah dia .. ikemen! XP hahahaha.. info sedikit... dia itu.. lebih tua dari Kanechan maupun Daichan.. tapi.. tampang dan sikapnya itu~ XP hahahaha.. XP


okaaay~ sekian dulu~ XP

jya~

Hope I never ever become a killer

 First, I post this because I only want to release my anger.. I don't mean to get any special attention or become a 'dramaqueen' one. If my posting bothering you, just unfriend / even block this account. 

 *sigh 

  

Again.. again... again.. 

what i did ( right now ) only hear from my room... but... every words from that 'B**' really make me angry and want to release my punch at her face. 

Some question really I want to give to that woman.. 

- why you NEVER OPEN YOUR EYES and LEARN with everything around you?!

- when you will STOP ur DRAMAQUEEN, huh! so DISGUSTING! 

- the simple one.. WHY YOU GETTING MARRIED THEN?! 

  

 Again.. always.. 

I really HATE you and WANT TO KILL YOU, F!M*M! of course.. I WILL NOT do that! because I DON'T WANT TO MAKE MY HAND DIRTY WITH HER BLOOD. 

Just PREPARE ur SELF! One Day I WILL GET OUT and FORGET all about you!! YUP!! I will proud if one day I meet you and say.. "My M*M already DIED a LONG LONG TIME AGO!"

--000000---

Maybe the title and the 'story' I wrote really different.. Everything I wrote before were from the bottom of my mind and heart. 

In short words, I really hate my Mom ( and my dad ) since I still young. 

Recently, I like to watch some Full!CrimeCase in America by YouTube. From some case I watch; an old man / an old lady / teen!boy / teen!girl, they became a killer because of their stress and hatred. 

But, it can be possible they become a victim too because of another's hatred. 

Do you ever hear about 'Michelle Knight' ? She was one of victim from a case '3 girls who kidnapped for 11 years'. 

I won't discuss about this crime story.. But what I learn was from her share. She said she didn't want to meet her mother when another victim more like to meet their friends and family. A simple reasons.. She still feel bad with her mother. Her hatred to her mom still in her heart although her mom talk with different words.. 

hahaha..

I only laugh when hear her mom's words.. Look like my parent's said when meet their friends / sibblings.. So disgusting..

 

*sigh 

I hate both my parents... but the most one was my mom.. I never care even in bibble say..

"heaven was under mom's foot".

For me..

"What the F** like I care, huh?!" 



Today, my mom told 'that words' again.. 
- You guys NEVER did anything to help her
- Although my father already giver all his money, she say 'it was nothing'. She will 'care' if he can give 3x from he give now.

- You guys only become a burden to her. Better for get out from 'her' house ( in fact, this house was a gift from my dad's ex!boss

and now.. only 3 things in my mind.. 

- Forget about find any 'lover' ( or choose to never get married ) 

- Focus to find new jobs with high salary ( as long you can eat and pay your new 'place' )

- Focus to find new place to stay by my self

... this's for now ... I don't know what will happen later... 

13 / 04 / 2013