4/13/2014

Hope I never ever become a killer


 First, I post this because I only want to release my anger.. I don't mean to get any special attention or become a 'dramaqueen' one. If my posting bothering you, just unfriend / even block this account. 

 *sigh 
  
Again.. again... again.. 

what i did ( right now ) only hear from my room... but... every words from that 'B**' really make me angry and want to release my punch at her face. 


Some question really I want to give to that woman.. 
- why you NEVER OPEN YOUR EYES and LEARN with everything around you?!
- when you will STOP ur DRAMAQUEEN, huh! so DISGUSTING
- the simple one.. WHY YOU GETTING MARRIED THEN?! 
  
 Again.. always.. 


I really HATE you and WANT TO KILL YOU, F!M*M! of course.. I WILL NOT do that! because I DON'T WANT TO MAKE MY HAND DIRTY WITH HER BLOOD. 


Just PREPARE ur SELF! One Day I WILL GET OUT and FORGET all about you!! YUP!! I will proud if one day I meet you and say.. "My M*M already DIED a LONG LONG TIME AGO!"

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Maybe the title and the 'story' I wrote really different.. Everything I wrote before were from the bottom of my mind and heart. 

In short words, I really hate my Mom ( and my dad ) since I still young. 

Recently, I like to watch some Full!CrimeCase in America by YouTube. From some case I watch; an old man / an old lady / teen!boy / teen!girl, they became a killer because of their stress and hatred. 

But, it can be possible they become a victim too because of another's hatred. 


Do you ever hear about 'Michelle Knight' ? She was one of victim from a case '3 girls who kidnapped for 11 years'. 

I won't discuss about this crime story.. But what I learn was from her share. She said she didn't want to meet her mother when another victim more like to meet their friends and family. A simple reasons.. She still feel bad with her mother. Her hatred to her mom still in her heart although her mom talk with different words.. 

hahaha..

I only laugh when hear her mom's words.. Look like my parent's said when meet their friends / sibblings.. So disgusting..


 

*sigh 

I hate both my parents... but the most one was my mom.. I never care even in bibble say..
"heaven was under mom's foot".

For me..

"What the F** like I care, huh?!" 



Today, my mom told 'that words' again.. 
- You guys NEVER did anything to help her
- Although my father already giver all his money, she say 'it was nothing'. She will 'care' if he can give 3x from he give now.
- You guys only become a burden to her. Better for get out from 'her' house ( in fact, this house was a gift from my dad's ex!boss




and now.. only 3 things in my mind.. 
- Forget about find any 'lover' ( or choose to never get married ) 
- Focus to find new jobs with high salary ( as long you can eat and pay your new 'place' )
- Focus to find new place to stay by my self



... this's for now ... I don't know what will happen later... 

13 / 04 / 2013

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